As I age, feelings of ambivalence have become a bigger and bigger part of my life. You would think at the rich age of 75, I’d know for certain what I want. That’s not the case for me. It seems the more I study and evaluate a situation, the more uncertain I become. It’s not that I don’t care. It’s not that I don’t possess a bunch of knowledge to sway me one way or the other. It’s simply a case of not being able to make up my mind.
For example, a big thing in my life is my job at The Change Companies®. I love most of what comes my way at work. I wake up in the morning looking forward to arriving at my office and interacting with both staff and clients. I like the creative aspects of the job and I enjoy the business relationships that naturally flow from the work.
BUT, on the other hand, there’s an equal part of me that wants to stay away from the pressures and challenges of a dynamic publishing and training company. I know my four shepherds don’t want me to leave the house. They follow me to the front gate, begging me for another romp around the property. I have my favorite chairs around the house with inviting books stacked up on the tables next to them. I look up and can see several trails that lead up to Lake Tahoe. I belong on one of them.
I want to go to work. I don’t want to go to work.
And that’s just one of hundreds of examples.
What are you ambivalent about today?